Perry, my condolances to you. Losing a pet no matter what kind it is, is a hard thing to deal with.
I know from past experiences myself that it takes time to overcome the grief one experiences when this happens.
Last Nov 5, I had my lil Betsy laid to rest. She was a companion to me for 13 years. She had been abandoned along an old logging road as a pup and I happened to find her. This was the day after Christmas. She
used to go to work with me everyday and welcome customers into the shop. She would lay down right in front of them. They either had to step over her or bend down and rub her belly.. ahahah.. 9 out of 10 times she got a belly rub..

I have her pics on my refrigerator and dresser. Her collar is there as well.
It again was a very hard decision to make and yet I know it was time. You see as they were prepping her, she had a seisure and passed right there before the fluid could be administered. I was right there and was able to give her the last kiss and hug.
Remember the good times and know you gave your per the best home it could ever have hoped to have.
I have not nor have any intensions of getting another dog. I know I could never have one like her.
I will admit I look, yet seems I just can't make that commitment now.
And if I never do, I will be ok. As I do know what it was to have loved and been loved back. OUr animals are like our own flesh and blood. At least in this house.
I refer to them as our 4 legged kids.

kim