Lost,... your SS.com name says it all...
I struggle with it, too...
PTSD, depression, loss...
Here's the deal... everything is out there... make your choices, and go..
Consider... that, every option that you can imagine, is available on this planet... .
Your choices, and options... are different than anybody else's... but,... remember... every option,.. every possibility, that you can imagine, is out there... and the only thing stopping you, is your choice...
Personal circumstance, is the thing that limits us... and even that is an option,
We can't be... anything we want to be... That's bull...
Life deals it's hand... and we must live with it...
... but,... the options are there... we just choose to leave them, because our choices are different than any other persons....
If you understand this... you can relax... and appreciate all the joys that this life offers...
...and accept that your personal road,.. is directed to a specific direction... it's no better or worse, because it is incomparable to any other...
You are on a unique path, that will go in a unique direction, and your task is to relax and appreciate the ride... and do what you can to maximise it...
Accept that you can't be anyone, or any thing, you want to be.....
... but,.. you can be,.. all you can be... in this life,.. given this hand,.. that you were dealt...
I have admired.... and respected... the openness and honesty,.. that you have shown on this site...
I see a good man there....
Life delivers to the good... or, fuk'it... it don't...
...but, you have to live by some code...
It's not whether you win or lose,... it's how you play the game...
I see you playing it honourably...
... that wins... it's the only ruler...
Now enjoy all you can find...
Peace, Serow...
PS... I don't mean to sound like Yoda.... I don't have it all figured out...
... in fact.... I struggle with a hopelessness... every day....
... but, I know... this life contains all the options I am allowed,... and I make the best of them....

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PSS... PM me,... any time... if you need an open ear,.. a stupid joke,.. or a voice to smooth the ride...
Sincerely... Serow...
PSSS!... when I get down... this always cheers me, a bit...
Really... ( hope it brings a smile)...
PM me,...,anybody,... any time...
Peace, bro...

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